I haven't written anything in years and I feel like saying something about my life.
I started going to an Art Academy a year ago.
You can imagine how happy I was at first: my mother finally accepted that all I wanted to do was drawing (more like she finally resigned), and she let me make my own choices.
However, after only one month, I noticed how wrong I was about everything. My expectations were reduced to zero as the classes in this school turned out to be one more useless than the other.
Most of the 'teachers' didn't teach anything, and after one year of feeling down and wasting time I decided that I had to stop idealising everything.
I was depressed and annoyed, and I didn't find drawing pleasurable anymore.
What's more, I didn't know what I wanted to do with my drawing 'skills' (If I have any), beacuse 'drawing' only wasn't enough anymore, since I chose it as my future work (not that I had other ways to go).
I feel like I've finally passed that dark period and kind of accepted that I don't know what I want to do/will do.
Also, I started watching animes again (as you probably noticed, seeing that I'm drawing anime characters lately).
Have a nice day, night wherever you are in the World!
P.S.: I've changed my username basically everywhere. I'm not Caerul anymore (that name is old and complicated). Now I use Syde, Syd, Sid or something like that.
Listening to: Death Cab for Cutie